Ut oh...

I have one of those crippling migraines today. The kind where little movements, sudden light changes, and whispering noises are excruciating. Yeah, one of those. I hate them because it makes me feel like my brain is mush. It makes me feel like my head is caving. Arrgh.

In the news...I just found out that my ex sister-in-law has moved into my neighborhood. Actually, she is just a few streets away. I'm torn over this. I really like her but I know what her loyalty to her brother is and a little part of me feels like I can't just hang out with her and be myself because she will be reporting my every move back to him.

No, I'm not just being paranoid. My ex is my stalker. Truthfully. Stupidly on my part, when he friended me on facebook, I accepted. Big mistake. He is now friends with every friend I have on there...even the ones he doesn't know or claimed to have hated when he knew them. My friend KC is a good example of this. (Why the hell did you accept, KC?)

He has been my shadow since our divorce over 9 years ago. Somehow, he has known everything I've done right when I was doing it. My guess is that he questions my family. I know my mom wouldn't breathe a word to him (even though she feels he is some kind of bodyguard for me) but I know my brother would tell him whatever he wanted to know.

The ex is always in my business. Always. And all my attempts to shut him out have failed. It pisses J off but she knows that it is none of my doing. Hell, it pisses me off too. It will be worse if his sister is right down the road from me. Not only will he be able to ask her what I've been up to (very small town, remember) but this also means he will be visiting. He's not a person I want in my neighborhood. Although he tries to pretend otherwise, I know that he still holds a grudge against J. I don't feel safe knowing that he could be lurking around watching me. He used to lurk around my house when I lived in Florida. Yeah, its freaky when you see your ex driving down your street in the middle of the night with no lights on and your outside walking the dog.

J is not tough and he is triple her size anyway. After 12 years and some pretty physical fights with him, I'm sure I could hold my own for a little while. (I know his weak spots.) But one punch from him and J would be broken. (Some butch I've got, huh.)

I guess I will just have to wait and see how it all plays out. I'll talk with his sister and if I feel she is going to be a problem, I will do my best to stay clear of her.

Now I have to talk to J and tell her what is going on. Not fun.

I've been to hell

I have survived the migraine from hell!

Five whole days of pain came to a peak early this morning where I thought I was going to die. Yes, I was sure my left eye was leaving my face and my brain was going to explode. I had to keep checking to see if I was bleeding from my ears and my nose. God, I hate migraines!

Pour J. I had her so freaked out, she was going to call my mother. In my rage of painful anger, I think I might have yelled at her. Something along the lines of, "What the fuck is my mom going to do? She fucking seven hundred miles away!" Honestly, all I really wanted J to do was take me to the hospital. That one little shot would have made the pain fade in the blink of an eye. I never asked. No, I toughed it out. The cramping pain in my skull just now faded enough for me to function. Finally! Whew. I feel like I fought the winning battle in the war or something.

I apologized to J for my angered rage. All I wanted was her help but all she kept doing was asking me questions. She apologized for not being fully awake enough to help. She explained that she really just didn't know what to do. Since we've been together, I've only had two other migraines that bad and both I was able to handle. This last one...I really did think I was going to die. Anyway, we are all good.

Now, life can get back to being abnormal.

Glubble, a family site

Day four of this headache...but today it kicked up a notch. It finally turned into a full fledged migraine.

Today I got an email from my sister-in-law. She told me that my nieces, Silly, Boo, and Monster, are getting old enough to where they are learning to use the computer. She said that she has even seen them do searches on Google for things like butterflies and such. The girls are 9, 8, and 3.

She made a good point, one misspelled word could lead them to a porn site or something so she signed up for this thing called Glubble. Its a browser for kids and it protects them from accidentally clicking on a site that is not suitable for them. From what I can tell, it gives the kids a list of suitable sites it can pick from to find the information they are looking for. It's a family site, so the only people that can see my nieces and what they are doing is family. There's no instant messaging but we can leave messages on a wall - similar to facebook - but only the family can see that wall. The coolest part is that the adults can see what the kids are actually doing online. For instance, when I signed in today I saw that Boo was looking up information on horses (her favorite animal) and Silly was looking up how to spell a word.

She also wrote this:
What you see when you sign onto Glubble, is not what the kids see. When they sign on, the entire browser "blows up", and they are in a "protected zone". What they see is a completely different browser. So while we can navigate the Glubble page in Internet Explorer, or Firefox, it just looks like any other website to us. For them, Glubble IS their browser. Glubble for them is what IE or Firefox is to us. They have hundreds upon hundreds of pre-approved sites that have been reviewed by the Glubble team, that the kids can search and explore. Also, I can add sites Ive approved myself for them to view, that Glubble may not have found yet. In addition to that, I can remove any site that is in the site library (the library is where the pre-approved sites are). You can actually do this too. If the kids try and view a site NOT approved, they are prompted for a password, which they do not have. The kids can not leave this "Glubble browser" without this password either.

I commend the creator of Glubble. I recommend this site to anyone who has young children.

Ah ha!

At last! I have finally figured out the reasoning behind my malfunctioning brain.

I was slowly draining the bright red cup that was filled with Dr. Pepper when it hit me. Blindsided. Out of nowhere. No warnings...the usual signs. Like blurred vision, ringing in my ears, an awful taste in my mouth, the shaking of my right hand. Nothing.

Just.....BAM! Like an action scene out of a comic book and I close my eyes and mutter...WTF!

It didn't slowly creep in my head. No, this migraine magically appeared and screamed, "HAHAHAHA!"

So, now, I'm numb and sulking. After searching the entire house from door to door, room to room, floor to ceiling, I realize there is no aspirin, Aleve, Tylenol, Advil, Valium, any form of sleeping pill, absolutely nothing that I can take to possibly fade this overwhelmingly painful MIND FUCK!

It does explain my bad mood though.

Pray for my roomies!